I'm Willing To Take The Risk
Posted on February 13, 2020
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go. – T.S. Eliot
Everything in my heart tells me I can do this.
I’m not going to spend my time here writing about what I think will happen – that’s reserved for the journey ahead. But what I will do is write about what this means to me and the messages I’ve been receiving for some time now.
Whenever fear is present, especially when it comes to walking upon untraveled paths, there’s something special that’s about to happen.
Sometimes that fear gets the best of us and we stall or take a step back. But the funny thing is, no matter how long you’ve prevented yourself from moving forward, there’s always that calling deep within to go on and see what it’s all about.
That can lead to one very frustrating cycle of taking one step forward and a step backward over and over again. The intention is there and it’s pointing you in the right direction. But, the fear is still creating endless setbacks.
No matter how long this cycle lasts, there’s an endless ringing of the metaphorical telephone…calling you to continue to try until you get it right.
Throughout the past year, I’ve been learning some pretty important lessons on far deeper levels than I have before.
Bravery. Courage. Working with fear. Consistency. Trust. Faith.
These aren’t cheap lessons.
These ones I really had to earn.
The frustrations were real. The failures hurt badly. I fell time and time again but I always got back up ready to go. I always believed that it was possible for me to crawl up to where I saw I could be even if it was just a little bit at a time.
When I look back at when I started – February 9th 2011 – I can’t imagine how far I’ve come. I also can’t believe what my life would be life if I didn’t make that decision to begin all of this.
Looking back has given me the ability to see myself with a broader perspective and the capacity to dive in deeper with a whole lot of context. It has helped me understand what dots had to connect to bring me right into this moment.
I’m ready to leave so many things behind and disintegrate old references for what life had to be like.
I’m ready to change in ways that I never thought were possible before.
I feel guided and supported on many levels and realize that I’m so far from doing this alone. The truth is, I couldn’t do this alone. I wouldn’t know how.
For years and years, I’ve always wanted to do something great. I itched for redemption, transformation, and metamorphosis. I wrote in the past about feeling like I was not truly walking the path that I was meant to. Deep within my bones I understood that there was something else out there for me I just had to find it.
While seeking into the outside world offered me a lot, it paled in comparison to what I learned from digging deeper and deeper within.
I could hear my intuition speaking to me and telling me to go in directions I didn’t really understand. While I had my doubts, I knew that there was always something to what it was saying and when I finally trusted it, I wasn’t disappointed in the slightest.
I have a chance to do something that corrects so many elements of my past and gives me another chance at truly thriving in life.
This is my one big shot. It’s the best time to do it. It’s what I was meant to do. I know it in my heart.
The Better Man Project