
In the middle of the night last night, I took a walk. Strolling in the dark thinking about the last 5 years of my life I wondered what could possibly be up ahead for me? What would the adventures be like? What could happen? And as I came back and laid down in bed, I took another walk in my mind. That story, is the story I am going to write for you today.
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There I walked
In that fog soaked morning
Amongst the cities and towns
Of my life
Craters riddled the land
Telling stories of agony
Buildings soared into the sky
Speaking volumes of resilience
The lighted areas danced brightly
And the darkness crept throughout the woods
I stepped into many places
To take a last look
To sit in the memories
Of this lovely world
I saw the people
Who have long been gone
And smiled at the times
We had spent together
I remembered the letters I had written
Penned straight from the heart
Putting them down one last time
I saw the triumphs
Despite the challenges
And witnessed those times of great weakness
Never breaking me
But only granting me scars
And many stories to tell
I walked amongst this place one last time
And as I left each building or patch of land behind
I soaked it with gasoline
Smiling as I went
This place built me
Granted me the greatest experiences of my life
This place wounded me
And at the same time taught me
The most important lessons I would ever learn
Passion
Integrity
Love
Kindness
Sacrifice
This place
Was a wonderful place I had to admit
How beautiful it was
The dark and the light
Mixing in together harmoniously
And yet there I was
Drenching it all
That sweet stench of gas
Mixed with the lasting burn of diesel
I never really knew
As I did it
If I would ever actually light it
Maybe I was hoping that a spark would do it itself?
I never really knew…
But I went on
Strolling through that city
Harboring everything in me
Over these past 25 years
When I felt the time was right
I stepped back onto that dock
With a trail of fuel behind me
Untied my ropes
Dropped the sails
And took off
Without the urge to ever look back
And yet right before I disappeared over the horizon
I felt it come over me
A swift desire
To do something I always wished of doing
So I grabbed that bow
And drew an arrow
Dipping it in oil
And lit it with a match
I drew hard
Aimed high into the sky
And took a split second
To look back on all that I had built
And without hesitation
Released
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It was the greatest sight I’d ever seen
A sight never to be forgotten
And I smiled
As it was all engulfed in flames
Roaring into the sky
And in that moment
The heavens witnessed
My new covenant
There was no going back
There were only new ways
I took one last look
And turned around
With a smirk on my face
Feeling the heat on my back
Dropping off the horizon
Never to return
Never to return
Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project
freedom, eh! march ever forward, travel light and happy. I would say I wish you all the best – but it has nothing to do with wishing – only that focus on where you want to be (but you already know that π )
I hope cupid π shoots the arrow towards your true love and you begin a journey with each other, being IN LOVE…
You can’t go home again.