I Just Know
Posted on January 3, 2013
Months and months ago, when I was halfway through the process with my book, and I took a walk with one of my best friends and talked to him for 45 minutes straight. It was about everything that was going on, all the questions I had in my mind, the dreams that I was having of what the book could become, the people I was going to meet, the person I wanted to become, the path I was going to continue to take…the conversation went on and on and on. We continued walking, and we got pretty close to our destination up on the hill and something happened that I will never forget. I said, “So what do you think?” I was pretty much asking for his approval, disapproval, judgements, thoughts…you know what it’s like. When something incredibly new and exciting but nerve-wracking at the same time in your life comes about, you need a little bit of help with the tornado that is going on in your mind. He didn’t even look at me when he said it…he just said
We walked in silence for the next 10 minutes. This story is what brings me to todays point…sometimes, you just know.
When you have the ability to turn off all the commotion that is going on in your head and just listen to the thump…thump…thump in your chest, you are able to understand this concept. You just…know. You can’t really put a who what where when why to things…you just deep down in your bones believe in something. I have that feeling right now. The feeling of just knowing that something is going to do great. In my mind, there is no doubt of its potential…and I also entertain that its real potential may far exceed what I even think it can. But I just know…and that feeling is something I can take with me down the road of the rest of my life.
What I truly feel makes this project completely different from many things that you will read is that it is not a self-help book…there is no formula…in fact if I was ever going to give anyone direction I would tell them to make a fist with their hand, then draw out their pointer finger, turn it towards themselves…and point directly at their heart. But also, my journey will never end. There will never be a day when I so called “make it.” I am sure that people will say “Oh, he is never satisfied with what is going on around him…blah blah blah.” Couldn’t be farther from the truth. I love life for every single piece it can offer. The good and the bad. But I do not settle. And after I committed years ago to a lifetime full of writing…I must honor that commitment. It is probably the most serious promise I have ever made in my life so far.
Everything you need is right inside you to do what you want to do and be who you want to be. It comes with blood, sweat, and tears though. If you have the stomach for it, then go ahead. Expect major challenges to come at you when you are deciding that you are going to swim upstream. Trust me, they will. And you will be completely blindsided…but the obstacles are there to show you how much you actually want something. When you give up…meh you didn’t want it that bad. You just kind of wanted it. Accept the journey in its entirety…accept that there will be absolute times of hell and times of heaven…but know your outcome…and that outcome with anything worth dedicating your time and life to is this: a smile.
Be proud of who you are.
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I thoroughly enjoyed reading this. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. 🙂 I agree that everything we need is inside us, definitely well said.
I had the same initial reaction to, “I don’t.”, but upon reading further, I too understood.
Indeed, let your heart speak. Well said, Bird. 🙂 And good job Evan, enjoyed reading this very much.
I’m a newbie to blogging (I’ve been blogging for 3 months) but because of the feedback good or bad that I’ve received I have a bubling sensation inside of me. I feel like my blog can take off, with some changes and hard work, I smile whenever I think of the future for my blog.
Evan, I feel this post on so many levels.
Great Evan, just great 🙂 when we view things from the heart it is all clear and harmonious. For anyone reading this comment, it does not mean viewing through emotions rather it is a perception, of intuition as was said of just knowing. The mind then follows with the practical stuff, let your heart speak. Thank you.
Going through your comments I think this must be a first. Help me. Please.
Can’t wait for the book! Your words are inspiring. I am at the beginning of a similar path. I know I want to write. I know I want to speak. I know I want to inspire authenticity, compassion, joy in others. Trying to figure out how to put it all together into something.
Evan, as I read your post I mentally reacted to your friends statement. For me it would have been awful to have invested the better part of an hour bearing my soul, only to be told, “I don’t.” However, by the time I got to the end I understood. I liked your response to the situation and how it made you grow. Thanks for following ~ L
Early morning; wonderful words. Thanks :).
Helluva way to begin 2013, thank you for the challenge and encouragement! I’ve been saying for a while that 2013 is going to be a GREAT year because I choose for it to be so. As you so perfectly said, this year, I’m swimming up stream.
p.s. Have you seen the movie Lawless? WOW. The movie is based on “The Wettest County in the World” by Matt Bondurant. It’s the true story of Bondurant’s grandfather and two granduncles.
Looking forward to 2013 with you. I am smiling. I am proud of who I am.
Nicole @ Three 31
This just really brightened my day! Great story, very uplifting.
Love this post thank you for sharing!
Happy New year!
Hi there. I nominated you for a blog award. Post is here: http://wp.me/p280GD-6J. Happy New Year and thanks for the good reads!
I find this to be so true. If you put in genuine, heart felt work and quiet the mind, good things will come. I’ve often said every person has the tools within them to achieve whatever they desire. They just have to reveal the tools.
thank you, food for thought. my blog is not really taking off yet, im impressed by yours. does it get easier? the techno stuff is really getting in the way of me saying what i want to say. by the time im done working out how to present what im saying, i can’t be bothered saying it anymore!
Cost you your faith? Oh! Say it ain’t so! Perhaps you just had your faith in the wrong thing. Sounds like you came from a very legalistic background. 🙁
Fantastic post! Sometimes I think too much, too, and I have to stop and just know, like you said. And while I want to always be content, I never want to be satisfied to the point of not wanting more of whatever God has available to me. Also, I have had a topic swimming around in my head for a while, and I would love to quote you when you said, “When you give up…meh you didn’t want it that bad. You just kind of wanted it.” Would that be okay?
I really like your blog 🙂 It is very uplifting and lots of people obviously love it. I just wanted to say a big THANK YOU! For following my SociallyAwkward blog (the one at this crazy URL http://www.daniellabassett.wordpress.com)
You’re my first ever follower, so I really appreciate it 🙂
Your blog gave me peace today. Thank you
Great post, Evan. I appreciate your contribution….we learn a lot from you.
How exciting to discover stillness! I’m so happy for you! Thanks for sharing this story. 🙂
Your enthusiasm is tangible and infectious 🙂 Don’t know why, but your writing made me think of that John Lennon quote: “My teacher asked me what I want to be when I grow up, I said happy. She told me I don’t understand the assignment, I told her she doesn’t understand life…”.
Great post, extraordinary quote (Nick Cave should finally learn to sing, he does it sometimes like running around alone in different rooms trying to play the instruments scattered there, expecting to sound as a harmony😜 I’m just a bit wicked😈
I have lived about 18 years from the past nearly 50 fundamentally believing I am evil, utterly sinful, there’s no good in me or in any of my family members, having to cope now with my newly earned freedom, which cost me my faith…
Proud of who I am…
Working on it mate, working on it…
Thanks a lot!