The biggest battle we fight is in our mind. Fear has taught me many things, but most of all as it is written also here: face everything and rise above it.
Sooo Scary when you are healing from your trauma and fears, but still isolating, DT coming back home where it happened around the areas in adulthood, due to the sudden death of my Father and living with my Mom, I love very much, but her unawareness of how she triggers me, of Trauma healing, due to her NS being so Dysregulated and I’m just here trying regulate myself. It’s a fight, but I feel I had a breakthrough today. She told me I didn’t have a say in the house. I Told her I Do! I will not feel or be controlled, I will not tolerate her stating that. I’ve learned that she’s cognitively declining since my Father passed. I had moved 900 miles back home to hear, “but you can’t go out “. Then I state not to say that, because that’s what I’m healing from. She’ll State, “no I am just saying that you can’t right now, because you’re afraid of X, y & z”. It doesn’t matter what someone says, you know that you’re healing from when you’re very aware of, can walk away from, breathe and come back and try to explain my feelings. I can’t make her heal or change. I either love her for or I run. I chose to stay. I thought I could not heal, as told by my Therapist’s, using different modalities, “you can’t heal living with her”. I feel it makes me more resilient and stronger. They should never say that. They are not me. It may be longer. Who knows. I just felt empowered today.
"Instead, I learned to stand still, to look at them, and to watch them dissolve." Putting in the work to hone this skill is the greatest superpower we can gift ourselves. Our fears have so much to teach us, if only we have the courage to stop running.
The biggest battle we fight is in our mind. Fear has taught me many things, but most of all as it is written also here: face everything and rise above it.
the truth!
Sooo Scary when you are healing from your trauma and fears, but still isolating, DT coming back home where it happened around the areas in adulthood, due to the sudden death of my Father and living with my Mom, I love very much, but her unawareness of how she triggers me, of Trauma healing, due to her NS being so Dysregulated and I’m just here trying regulate myself. It’s a fight, but I feel I had a breakthrough today. She told me I didn’t have a say in the house. I Told her I Do! I will not feel or be controlled, I will not tolerate her stating that. I’ve learned that she’s cognitively declining since my Father passed. I had moved 900 miles back home to hear, “but you can’t go out “. Then I state not to say that, because that’s what I’m healing from. She’ll State, “no I am just saying that you can’t right now, because you’re afraid of X, y & z”. It doesn’t matter what someone says, you know that you’re healing from when you’re very aware of, can walk away from, breathe and come back and try to explain my feelings. I can’t make her heal or change. I either love her for or I run. I chose to stay. I thought I could not heal, as told by my Therapist’s, using different modalities, “you can’t heal living with her”. I feel it makes me more resilient and stronger. They should never say that. They are not me. It may be longer. Who knows. I just felt empowered today.
"Instead, I learned to stand still, to look at them, and to watch them dissolve." Putting in the work to hone this skill is the greatest superpower we can gift ourselves. Our fears have so much to teach us, if only we have the courage to stop running.
that’s the absolute truth
This one made cry... I hate to run, but I've been running from my fears for such a long time without noticing until i read this!
They’re waiting to be released gently🙏❤️