Would love love love to hear your feedback on this post and if anything resonated with you! Please drop your comments below and I'll make sure to respond.
The hardest part for me was not just the silence it was the emptiness, the loneliness, the fear of losing control when you thought you had your life all worked out. That paralysing fear. Now I have worked on that mostly, and feel now a sense of accomplishment. I am stronger I am definitely braver and ready to step through that door for so long that I have been to afraid to open.
Your writing is such an inspiration to me and I thank you for every word.
Really enjoyed this reading and it aligns well as I navigate letting go of large parts of my identity that served me in the past, and no longer serve me now. It's terrifying to let go of something you know so well, and hold onto a vision of the future you hope to find. Thanks for the prompts, lots to sit with.
I remember my first months of emptiness and the relief when I could transform the emptiness into a picture of a vast infinite open space. Of course, having lived in a small cabinet before, open space is unknown but you get used to it. But what I didnt expect that this story is to be continued. Transformation was leading me into new versions of myself and into new forms of emptiness and it becomes more and more unbearable. It does no longer feel like dying. I am used to the feeling of death and rebirth ... I still couldnt find perfect words to describe the more advanced stages ...
when the emptiness and the pain and the abandonment pour into laughter and joy and bliss about experiencing a moment in which you are and are not at the same time....
This hit really hard in the best way. I know what I am meant to become but every time I move closer to that space I can’t seem to let go of the comfortable place I’ve been for the last years. The untethered and wide open space is apparently too scary for me to fully embrace it. Thanks for putting words to what I’ve been feeling and giving me permission to just feel the moment for what it is!
Transformation doesn’t happen overnight. It takes dedication and hard work. You nudged me to think about silence and I just might write about it soon. Thank you!
Would love love love to hear your feedback on this post and if anything resonated with you! Please drop your comments below and I'll make sure to respond.
The hardest part for me was not just the silence it was the emptiness, the loneliness, the fear of losing control when you thought you had your life all worked out. That paralysing fear. Now I have worked on that mostly, and feel now a sense of accomplishment. I am stronger I am definitely braver and ready to step through that door for so long that I have been to afraid to open.
Your writing is such an inspiration to me and I thank you for every word.
This came to me at a time I need it most. Thank you for sharing this post!
Really enjoyed this reading and it aligns well as I navigate letting go of large parts of my identity that served me in the past, and no longer serve me now. It's terrifying to let go of something you know so well, and hold onto a vision of the future you hope to find. Thanks for the prompts, lots to sit with.
I remember my first months of emptiness and the relief when I could transform the emptiness into a picture of a vast infinite open space. Of course, having lived in a small cabinet before, open space is unknown but you get used to it. But what I didnt expect that this story is to be continued. Transformation was leading me into new versions of myself and into new forms of emptiness and it becomes more and more unbearable. It does no longer feel like dying. I am used to the feeling of death and rebirth ... I still couldnt find perfect words to describe the more advanced stages ...
when the emptiness and the pain and the abandonment pour into laughter and joy and bliss about experiencing a moment in which you are and are not at the same time....
... and finally, after years and years fealing lonely having walked this path - confirmation appears. Others experienced the same!
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This hit really hard in the best way. I know what I am meant to become but every time I move closer to that space I can’t seem to let go of the comfortable place I’ve been for the last years. The untethered and wide open space is apparently too scary for me to fully embrace it. Thanks for putting words to what I’ve been feeling and giving me permission to just feel the moment for what it is!
Transformation doesn’t happen overnight. It takes dedication and hard work. You nudged me to think about silence and I just might write about it soon. Thank you!