Be still. Be quiet. Listen. Watch. These things, all of these things, feel like they were not here just a lifetime ago. No patience. No stillness. No calmness in my heart. A tornado used to rage within. One that makes itself known from time to time just to keep me honest. But most of my days are filled with a much gentler way of showing up in the world. A way where I don’t have to strip this life of its resources and I can just show up as exactly who I am. That’s a much healthier way of living. That’s much better for this heart of mine. At times, I wonder exactly what the meaning of everything I’ve been moving through means. There’s…