I think in many ways I’ve distrusted the possibilities of what lay before me. It doesn’t matter what it is – career, job, love, relationships, passing of the bad. It’s that fear. The fear dissolves all of the good and sends me back into the darkness. It’s the fear that tears the light away and makes me see with very clouded eyes. As the darkness rolls in, I become a lesser version of myself. I’m not wise in that place. I’m not loving in that place. I keep people at a distance and look to isolate myself from the world. I understand now that I’m just scared. I’m afraid of getting hurt. But that’s not the deepest wisest version of who I am. Lately,…