Deep in the mountains I planted my dreams amongst an ancient Juniper tree.

I promised myself that no matter what came my way, I would come back in 30 days a different man.

I will have claimed my right to be everything I knew I can be. I will have released myself from the chains of my past and have moved on in a drastically different way.

It was time to change, permanently, so I planted those seeds.

Today, I took my first steps.

I walked upon ground that I’ve been thinking about for months on end now.

While I had tried in the past, there was something very different about who I was today. Today, I was a committed soul. Today, I went all in.

There’s no turning back. There’s no looking back. There’s only forward. There’s only what comes next. While I have no idea what is coming for me, I am determined to find out. I am determined to write these pages the way I want them to instead of having them be written by the ways of old.

Today, was a hinge point in my life.

I can see how easy it is to fall into walking the same path over and over again. It’s one of the hardest things in the world to see another way of doing things and to change for good. There’s always this desire to retreat back into what you know — the past 9 months of my life are evidence of this — but I’ve seen that so much more is waiting for me.

Never again. Never again.

Today, I whispered goodbye.

Over the past couple of years, I have traveled thousands of miles across the globe only to discover that the real journey I wanted to go on was the one that I started taking today —

Within.

It was never about walking the earth.

It was never about seeing beautiful places.

It was always about connecting with what was already here.

It was never about there.

I believe I can do this. I believe that I am on a path that will drastically change my life. Am I a little bit nervous? Yes. However, I know that at the end of this, the amount of pride I will have in myself will be like nothing else I have ever experienced.

I am traveling a path few have gone.

I am climbing a mountain that few have climbed.

This is for me.

This win is for me.

This is what I’ve been looking for.

Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project