In every moment, there’s a lesson. You just have to look for it.
It doesn’t matter what it is. Take the deepest darkest corners of your heart and illuminate them with curiosity. What lives there? Why is this pain this way? What would happen if I bring light to it?
What you will find is what I have found all these years – that your own personal darkness is illuminated by the light within.
Everything that I have ever been terrified of, that I decided to turn straight into, eventually disintegrated into emptiness. There’s nothing there. But my oh my have I gripped onto stories in my life. Whether they were stories that made me feel that I fell apart or stories that I needed to let go of altogether, I have had a firm grip on what I didn’t want to change.
As time has gone on however, I’ve learned to let go more and more. With that came freedom. With that came everything I actually wanted when I was under the illusion of control in the first place.
Freedom wasn’t freedom from things. Instead, it became freedom to be with everything.
The good. The bad. The ugly.
When I stopped wanting it to be any other way than what it was this huge sigh of relief came over my entire body. Everything starts to relax. What comes in to replace all of the fear, doubt and worry?
Faith.
With faith and action, you can do anything you want to do.
All of these moments that I have been hearing back into when I read the old blogs have reignited a fire in my heart. I’ve started to understand that this path of growth I have been on for the past 7 years has been something that has not only saved my life, but also given me a completely new one.
There are areas in which I read my old work where I can see very clearly that there were a couple of paths to be taken and things could have gone very very differently if I made different choices. That might sound quite obvious, but when you really go back to those times, things were very opaque.
(Project 1825)
My full commitment into diving headfirst into the world of video has begun. Project 1825 is a one year commitment to making 5 different videos a day. 2 shorts, 1 coaching video, 2 blog videos. With testing over the past month, I know that this is possible for me and that I can make things pop if I head into this.
It’s enough of a mix to bring a ton of different content and reasonable enough for me to be able to do while working every single day.
I have no idea what’s going to happen when I do this…just a gut feeling that it’s the right decision to make and another positive step on my path.
Here’s to finding out.
Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project