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There are these little moments that aren’t so little at all.

Passing words, broken silences, quick glances and fleeting smiles.

Moments to a racing eye that wouldn’t even register…but to a calmer soul would impact it in ways that are incomprehensible.

These little moments, that aren’t so little at all, are the moments I’ve started to live for. It seems just a short time ago it was only something grandiose that could attract my attention, but as time has gone on, I have lived for the seemingly insignificant things that many don’t even pay attention to…

And those things mean the world to me.

A kind word.

A gesture.

An action without words to curb it’s driven purpose.

Beautiful. All of it beautiful. Living this way has changed me in ways that I haven’t been able to truly grasp yet. I don’t have to look at the bigger picture to find my gratitude, but rather can have a moment sitting in bed thinking about the day and just have a smile across my face.

No nerves. No anxiousness. Just a feeling of what is right.

There’s a trust there that didn’t exist in me before. I never used to  trust my intuition and now I purely am guided by it. Never really questioning why I am doing something the way I am doing it because I know it’s the right thing to do.

Never questioning the timing of things because I know that’s exactly how they are supposed to happen.

And with this trust comes a deep sense of faith. Faith that I am on the right path and that at the things that are coming across this path I walk are perfect for me in every single way – no matter how difficult they may be at times.

There’s something to be said for being right here…and enjoying that single moment…a moment that had been building for quite some time…and understanding that even if it ended right there…it would be perfect.

There’s nothing more to add to it. There’s nothing you had to subtract from it. Rather…you can just let it unfold as it is, just like a flower opening up to the sun, and there wouldn’t be a single thing you would need to change.

Today, was many things.

Today warmed my heart in many ways.

Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project