Oh spiritual transformation, how do you kick my butt.
Tonight, I’m struggling. I’m struggling to lift a pretty large amount of uncertainty. I’m struggling because there are things that are changing, which feel not as cozy and homey as they used to, and it’s taking a little bit out of me. But tonight I am here writing about how difficult this spiritual transformation is as a way to be honest with what is going on with me right now.
One of the biggest challenges I am facing this year is being willing and able to lift as much uncertainty as I can and to be willing to be okay with that. Right now, I don’t feel okay with it. I feel exposed. I feel vulnerable. I think that’s the point though. Some of this anxiety that is running through my veins is because I am in a very vulnerable place right now and I am dealing with being right out in the open. It feels very unsafe actually. In fact, I could venture to say that the uncertainty of what’s going to happen literally 10 minutes from now has shaken me slightly.
Faith comes to mind. Faith in something that you aren’t able to see but oh you can feel it…you can feel it deep within your bones. It is something that exists despite anything that you are going through. Have troubles? Dig into your faith? Have no idea where something is going with someone? Dig into your faith. Eventually, all things turn out in the end. If they are bad now you just have to toss it up into the sky and the rest will take care of itself.
Spiritual transformation isn’t a task list.
In the past, I have tried too hard to force my spiritual transformation. What I didn’t realize back then was that it isn’t something that you can force. It’s something that you have to just be with. You have to open yourself up to the possibilities of the world and only when you are open can things start flowing in. Spiritual transformation isn’t about progress either, but more about a deepening of the mind, body, and the spirit. There’s no linear plane, but we are more moving on an x,y,z plane that has no specific intended direction. For those who are very structured and progress oriented, that can be a very difficult thing to deal with. But that’s the point – spiritual transformation is difficult and it takes some work.
I think deep down we are all a tad bit lost. We are all looking for answers to some of life greatest questions and we struggle with how the world shows up for us. I know that with me that is definitely the case. The Better Man Project in a way is actually my almost-daily account of my spiritual transformation and what I am learning along the way. There have been many many great lessons that have come to me throughout time and have significantly changed the course of my life. For that, I am eternally grateful.
These struggles right now are just part of the plan. In fact, it’s all part of the plan. That’s something that I have been learning every single day. Just because sh*t is hitting the fan doesn’t mean that the journey has ended…it’s only begun. This journey of mine has only begun and despite whatever is bubbling up for me right now, I know that I will move forward with strength and courage.
Yup, this spiritual transformation thing is one hell of a doozy.
Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project
Good to know that I am taking a good path! Love the comment thank you 🙂
I appreciated the comments about the difficulties of attaining Spiritual Transformation. After sixty years I have some empathy for those on that journey, and I would encourage determination and consecration of purpose…it is well worth the effort. Transformation is a growth process, which has to take its natural course. I have attempted to share what I have learned and experienced on my websites at: http://coronalongreach.wordpress.com and also http://wa1tersc0tt.wordpress.com
So glad you liked this post! Funny how the things that are going on in peoples lives intertwine and really we are all going through the same things. Hope all is going well.
such a freaking amazing comment!
Oh absolutely! I have a mixture of all sorts of things going on. I think there is a force way greater at play, and that in itself can just be seen in nature and the inherent goodness of what is going on around us in life (despite the bad). There are vibrations. If anything, believe in the energy around us. Great comment.
Haha it’s more like toothpaste after a glass of orange juice! lol
Spiritual transformation doesn’t look like “Glory”. It doesn’t smell like glory; or taste like chocolate chip cookies. It’s more like toothpaste!
Its funny, but even as an atheist, faith does have a part in my life. Especially in relationships. I believe it’ll all work out, and even if it doesn’t, it’ll be interesting. And I’m right – about the interesting bit.
Sometimes faith is the unbreakable thread that withstands all the sh** life can throw at you.
It’s funny that you posted this because I just posted something very similar. I understand how you feel, one of my biggest fears is wasting my life and right now I feel so lost, but you are right, it’s times like these we have to lean back and trust God and His infinite wisdom to take care of us. Thank you this has helped me somewhat and right now that’s better than nothing!