Day (168) – Two Envelopes
Posted on March 7, 2012
I wasn’t planning on writing this post, especially at this time of the night. Here I am however, struck by the after effects of the flu, coughing, wheezing, and praying to god that I can get to sleep soon. So what is it on my mind as the night quickly turns into the day? Failure.
If you haven’t failed, you haven’t lived. When I think of failure, I split it into two categories. There are those who fail, accept failure, and stop trying. And there are those who fail, and fail, and fail, and fail, and continue to do so with a vision in their mind of success. These individuals know that one day, success will come. I was thinking today while I was in the gym getting ready to warm up for one of the hardest back workouts I have ever done…”what will I say to those who accuse me of cheating or of doing steroids etc when 73 days from now I have a completely new and ripped physique?” I thought about this for a short while, and realized one of my first instincts was to think about Thomas Edison. People told him that there was no future in electric light and that he was wasting his time. People especially reminded him of this fact after he failed over 10,000 times to create the lightbulb. However, Edison responded to a reporter one day inquiring into his failures that he hadn’t failed, but successfully identified many ways that creating the lightbulb won’t work. And this is what I will say. It wasn’t that I didn’t want it bad enough, or thought that it was worthwhile, it was that I was finding ways it wasn’t going to happen for me. I finally landed on a way that so far is working incredibly well. Last Sunday I spent 2 hours cooking, grading, and calculating all my meals for the week. It is all inside my fridge right now and all I have to do is heat up the parts that need heating and I have a delicious meal that I can eat over and over again. Most of the time, I can’t even finishing eating what I have designated myself to eat. From Sunday, I have become much more relaxed about food during the day and move about not having to worry what I am going to eat. I have prepared myself in a powerful way for the week, and I am achieving what I set out to do. There is no better feeling.
March is dedicated to transformation. To making significant strides towards achieving my goals and starting my career after school ends. It is absolutely certain in my heart that what the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve. No one has to believe it but you. The times where I find myself in a funk and a bad attitude are the times when I am not living in a world of possibility. Those times are constricted, “that’s just the way things are” pretty much describes those times. What is crucial however is to believe that something different can happen in the world that is against the grain of how many thousands of years humanity has been around. I believe that the secret to happiness is working on my passion. That is when I am most happy, and that is when I am most powerful. Someone the other day asked me when I am most inspired…and after thinking about it for a while, I answer, “When I see someone else living an unconditional life.” They looked slightly puzzled at me for a while, and then I explained. ‘An unconditional life is a life without boundaries. There are no buts, cant’s, will not’s, reasons, etc. This type of life is one where anything can happen. Everyone by the grace of the gods was given two envelopes in life. One envelope is filled with the talents and skills you were born with. Everyone has opened up this envelope and is living the way they are currently. The other envelope has the mind inside. When you choose to take control and use the power of the mind, you have unlocked one of the greatest powers in the world.” I then apologized for giving a short answer…and then laughed.
How are you living your life? I can tell you that I have just started to scratch the adhesive off the second envelope. One of my teachers told me to always think outside the box…but you first must know what is inside the box. I think this is one of the greatest pieces of advice I have ever been given. I have failed over and over again. I know exactly what is inside my box. And now that I know what is inside, I can think outside of it.
All my best,