Yesterday, I went to the mall with my roommate, and after a while of walking around, I just stopped him and said ,”Lets go to the LEGO store!” We got there, and I was in awe of all of the different types they had and the amazingly huge sets. They didn’t have lego’s like this when I was a little kid. Side note: I still have my gigantic box of lego’s in the basement. Anyways after looking around and being older than every kid in there by almost 15 years, I saw a Star Wars X wing fighter, and it took me right back to being 5 years old. When I was 5 I had an X-Wing that I made all on my own at my parents friends house, and when I was done I was running to go show them inside and….BAM! I ran face first into a plate glass window. Well, I had a very bloody nose, but what I was absolutely devastated about was the X Wing was blown to pieces. We couldn’t even find all the pieces and I cried that whole night. Well, yesterday after coming back from the library, I built my X Wing…and it makes me smile. I remember spending countless hours with legos building cities and anything I could possibly imagine. I look at my space plane, and just laugh, because thats the little boy in me coming out. I wrote a while ago about having that little kid in you still, and that we need to hold onto that because we often lose it as we grow up. Well, my X Wing is a great step in that direction.
Today’s post is going to be short because the list of things on my mind is a short list. I am at peace with a lot of things, and that old car that was having trouble starting up is getting ready to move again. My heart complications are still concerning, but everything else I am very happy about. That little boy or girl in you is your character at its finest. Mine is mischevious, borderline devilish, but also young, happy, and excited about everything. I can tell you right now, I am excited about everything. Thats why I have such a good attitude about what is going on with my health. I know I will probably be okay, but even if I am not I am excited about what the next step is. I am excited about the journey and about where it will take me. People get caught up in their crap way too often and don’t have time to tell the people they care about that they love them and appreciate them. Those who do say it to you, well, you know they really care. So to all my friends out there, I love and appreciate every single one of you, you will never be forgotten. As for me right now, I am embracing the little blonde hair blue eyed boy that was me a long time ago. He makes me smile.
Off I go.
Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project