Day (16) – Into the Desert
Posted on May 12, 2011
Into the desert I go ladies and gentlemen. There could not have been a more perfect time for lent to come around. So for this 40 days, I have given up eating animal products and, I cant believe I am saying this, but I am giving up Facebook. The first, is more of a personal health goal, the second is a goal that I have wanted to achieve for a while. I can go without it, and its going to be really good for me. Whenever I go into the library I see people always on Facebook. I wonder how much time is actually spent on Facebook every day by students? I know I spend a fair share on it. Giving it up for a while will be like a breath of fresh air.
I came from a Catholic school, but I never was very religious. We always went to mass and everything, but to me Church was more of just something I had to go to rather than something I wanted to go to. Lent was just a time where I had ashes on my forehead, and for maybe a couple weeks gave up something that I wanted to…but eventually failed. This year, God gave me a second chance at life. No joke. I remember how I felt coming out of that and words could not be created to show how much thanks I had for that. This past year, I have seen God in action. Everyone has their own beliefs, my beliefs aren’t set in stone by a book, but are constantly morphing and changing every day. One of my favorite quotes is from a movie called Simon Birch, where he says “Faith has no floor plan.” Hese right. Our faith shouldn’t have to be shown within a pretty box. But it is still good to go there and put yourself in His hands. I am in His hands. My faith has changed. My relationship with God is not at all what it was in the past. It has humbled me, made me respect life much more, and allow me to love people with an ability that I don’t even understand. Our relationship goes further though. Every day, He challenges me. He challenges my strength, my patience, my ability to become a better man, but I think what He does the most is challenges me to see what I am made out of. How strong are the fibers in my body connected and how well can I manage them. I once wrote before, “What is the point of me trying so hard…after one thing after the next after the next keeps happening?” I have a feeling of why. We all go through hard times in our lives, thats a given part of it. Some people put themselves in positions where they can fully protect themselves and in the end bad things happen to them in the end of life. You cannot fortify yourself from life. “Life will beat you to your knees and keep you there if you let it.” – Rocky Balboa. Things have happened in my life now, because He knows that I can take these things, fight against them, accept them, and learn from them. And what I get out of them is knowledge. Imagine that. If we can all just take a look at ourselves and the situations we are in and just see them as a learning opportunity. I know its hard, trust me I am guilty of dwelling. But becoming a better man is about changing your life. It’s also about having the ability to allow others to take the chance to change their lives without you. Be unselfish. Be understanding. I know for a fact that when someone wants to leave, I don’t want to let them. Carrying on with your life without someone can be really hard, but if its their journey and their path to take, then how can you stop them. You know what the great thing about paths are? Sometimes, they meet up with the path you are on.
So into the desert I go. My sister gave me a Flip video recorder for my Christmas present this year, and I think I am going to make a little something with it. My sacrifices to God will hold, and I can’t wait for the journey ahead of me. Challenge yourself to change something about yourself in these 40 days. We will see who I am in 40 days.