This entire week, it has been mulling in me. This feeling of something just being slightly off. I couldn’t figure it out for the life of me because I felt like everything was fine and handled but it wasn’t. There was something still just not quite right about where I was that felt like as sticking point for…years.
It came down to this.
Belief that everything I am doing is going to send me in the exact direction I need to be headed in. Belief that all of the extra effort, going the extra mile, the discipline, the focused ambitions, the hard work, sweat, tears…all of it, will take me where I need to be taken. I don’t know exactly what all of it is going to look like right now – how could I. But what I do know is that I am headed that way…I am loving that path…and I have faith that I have the ability to do what I was put here to do.
But here’s the kicker.
For the longest of times, my mind has been distracted by all sorts of things. Mostly…the #1 if I’m going to be completely honest with you…is what other people are doing. What are they doing and chasing after etc. What are they up to? I’ve been focusing pieces of my mind on what other people are doing instead of paying full attention to the path I’m on right now. When my mind would go off into another persons world my critic would go off and unravel everything that was going on in mine. Truth is, I would end up being undisciplined in continuing to see my purpose through every single day because my mind was getting distracted.
And lord how many distractions are there in the world today…far too many.
So I took care of what I needed to take care of (deleting some apps, getting myself off of social media, restructuring my working process) and taking a deeper level of commitment to what I’m up to.
Because I believe. I believe in this vision that I have in my mind. I believe that it’s possible for me – I mean really believe. It is possible for me. I am capable. I have what it takes. But what was the next step – more discipline in the area of what was taking me out of the game.
If I don’t fully go for what I know I can achieve, I will live in regret. This has been a week and a half of this same conversation over and over and I think it’s a sign. The only way that I’m going to live in a place of no regret is to do everything I know I can do. So I’m going to do that.
I’ve removed the distractions.
I’ve removed the things that needed to be taken out of my life so I can show up and provide what I know I can.
Sometimes, it’s about adding through subtracting. This is where I am at now…focusing on what really matters instead of letting my mind get pulled away by the noise of it all. I made the decision because it’s what resonates deeply with me. That feels good. It all feels good. I’m in a much better place.