I’ve been searching for a little bit of magic. I’ve been looking to capture that lightning I can feel inside and bottle it up for a special moment. I’ve been waiting, calmly, patiently…giving this feeling inside the chance to build up to a point where I knew I was ready to take those first steps.
This week, I made the decision to go head first into my coaching practice and to build it from the ground up. But the decision to do that is far more than just seeing what I am capable of in this arena…it’s actually answering a call. This deep calling came to me over a year and a half ago and I spent a lot of time on the phone with it but too nervous to put the phone down and get going. There was never a click sound…until this week. Then it came.
There weren’t any more questions. There wasn’t a desire to stall out anymore. There was just…the dream. The vision. The deep purpose that resonated with me so much at my core I couldn’t really explain to anyone just how rooted this decision was. It didn’t just come at the right time, it showed up at the perfect time.
I spent this past week sitting with this decision and really beginning to understand exactly what I needed to do to make this all a success. Truth is, I’ve been preparing to do this for some time now I just didn’t know that at the time. The countless hours of training, reading, studying, and development molded me into the type of person who could sit with another, connect with them on a level beyond words and listen to them in a way they’ve never been listened to before. I had been shaping myself in such a way that was guided by a deeper current than just a goal or “something I wanted to accomplish.”
I guess it all makes a lot more sense when you are looking back…much easier to connect the dots that way.
We are often so paralyzed by our fear of things not working out that it stops us from going for what we really love. I’ve been there. I’ve been there countless times actually. But in the end, if we are brave enough to really see it through – to give it our best effort and to try time and time again even though we are failing – what is there really to doubt when we get to the end of the road? Nothing. We gave it our all and when the odds were stacked up against us, we believed in ourselves so much that we proved it to be possible.
The impossible has been a achieved time and time again.
But you have to believe in yourself more than anything. No one else is going to believe in what you are doing as much as you. That’s just the way it is. And honestly, how could they? They don’t see what you see. They don’t feel what you feel. It’s ok that they don’t truly understand…that doesn’t mean you have to give up on your dreams as well.
I stalled out slightly on a project that I had been working on for a couple of months straight because of a touch of burnout and a little bit of “oh my god it’s actually working…what if?” That fear of light…the potential of something really catching fire and changing everything is present as well. It’s funny how seemingly contradictory things can all exist as “true” at the same time.
There must be one thing though that never changes – your faith.
Faith in what you are doing. Faith in what you believe in. Faith in yourself. Faith that even though you can’t see what is exactly happening right now, that it will all work itself out exactly the way it’s supposed to.
I’m at a place right now where I have to deeply dig into that faith and continue pushing down a road that hasn’t been forged yet.
It takes a hell of a lot more work to do it this way…but I’ll tell ya, in terms of the vision I have in my head for where this is going…it’s going to be worth it.
So get dirty, get messy, get uncomfortable. Work hard. Work incredibly hard. But never lose your faith. Never lose sight of your “why” and move forward constantly…not matter how badly you want to stop.
– Evan Sanders