Moving Mountains


A little over a year ago I experienced the worst failure of my life. As much as others say, “It wasn’t a failure because you learned something etc etc”… I failed.

I failed miserably. I had taken the biggest risk of my life in moving down south to LA a year prior with opportunity glowing in my eyes and the willingness to work my butt off, but for one reason or another everything fell apart. When I knew it was time to go, I was heartbroken. With tears in my eyes, I had to tell one of my best friends in what will probably remain for the rest of my days one of the hardest moments I’ve had to go through…that I had to leave and it was time for me to rebuild my life from the ground up.

I packed up my stuff into a gigantic suburban and drove home. What I’ve never told anyone was what that drive home was like. I cried for 3 hours straight until I had nothing left in me to even shed out…and spent the other 3 hours in absolute head-hanging shame. I was humiliated. I had failed in business, I had to leave people I love dearly, I tore my body to pieces and my heart was in a very bad place.

That failure ripped me to shreds, and when I got home, I made a decision that day to never again turn myself into a failure because I had failed. In a little over a year, everything has changed. Everything. Body. Mind. Soul. And here I am tonight, after making a decision this afternoon…another big risk…that I’ve been thinking about for months on end.

I’m going all in, fully answering my deepest calling to help change the lives of others. This time though, I’m betting on myself. This time, it’s my own sweat equity that’s going to make it all happen. My dream is right there in front of me and I’m going to reach out and take it. It’s a risk…a huge one…but it’s either live to tell the story or die trying. Time to move mountains.

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  • Brandie Sellers
    August 5, 2015 at 6:14 am

    I think it’s pretty awesome you’re still answering that call and persevering the failure. Don’t let it stop you and keep your light shining 🙂

  • gadabouthangout
    August 5, 2015 at 6:27 am

    Well done sir. I am going thru something similar. All the best and plug away toward the goal.

  • gadabouthangout
    August 5, 2015 at 6:29 am

    Glad to see you found a goal thru all of that turmoil. I can relate, going thru a similar situation. All the best to you, press on to your call 🙂

  • DaVida Nature Photography
    August 5, 2015 at 5:11 pm

    Seems to me someone (ahem!) once wrote about “the glorious failure”, where even if the thing failed, the risk of trying was worth it. I found this particular insight very helpful when after three years of pursuing, and a year and a half of having my dream job, risking everything and moving to a different state, the dream failed when I was let go. If I can find the reference, I will let you know. It helped me to recover and move on. Chin up, kido!

  • DaVida Nature Photography
    August 5, 2015 at 5:39 pm

    Easier to find than I thought it would be!

    From my blog post, February 2013:

    The glorious failure is the failure that happens when you give it everything you have and it still doesn’t work out. – Evan Sanders

    After I broke down the situation, this is what I wrote:

    My current situation, UNEMPLOYMENT, is not a glitch, a punishment, a pit stop, a time out, or any other negative implication I wish to give it.

    It is the result of a GLORIOUS FAILURE, a failure so big that is has pushed me to places I didn’t want to go to within myself.

    It’s not that I didn’t try hard enough. It’s that I did TRY. I gave it my best. It didn’t work out.

    It is NOT a dead end. It is PART of my journey.

    I am NOT unemployable. I am simply, at THIS moment, unemployed.