“Bruce had me up to three miles a day, really at a good pace. We’d run the three miles in twenty-one or twenty-two minutes. Just under eight minutes a mile [Note: when running on his own in 1968, Lee would get his time down to six-and-a half minutes per mile]. So this morning he said to me “We’re going to go five.” I said, “Bruce, I can’t go five. I’m a helluva lot older than you are, and I can’t do five.” He said, “When we get to three, we’ll shift gears and it’s only two more and you’ll do it.” I said “Okay, hell, I’ll go for it.” So we get to three, we go into the fourth mile and I’m okay for three or four minutes, and then I really begin to give out. I’m tired, my heart’s pounding, I can’t go any more and so I say to him, “Bruce if I run any more,” —and we’re still running-“if I run any more I’m liable to have a heart attack and die.” He said, “Then die.” It made me so mad that I went the full five miles. Afterward I went to the shower and then I wanted to talk to him about it. I said, you know, “Why did you say that?” He said, “Because you might as well be dead. Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over into the rest of your life. It’ll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level.” – Training Partner Of Bruce Lee
I’ll never forget this as I watched one of the most famous men in the world give a speech on fear. He goes…anyone who tells you they aren’t afraid is an idiot. Everyone is scared to death…but the ones who do something in this world…they do it anyways. Courage is acting in the face of fear.
I am in one of the most interesting phases of my life. It’s one of the most exciting and at the same time, there are these moments…these moments that are hard to describe that tighten my stomach. I’ve had to do everything to breathe through these moments. I’ve had to use all my cards to continue moving forward to even where I am at now. I’ve had to call friends, have conversations, pray, meditate, go on night drives, do ab and band work in the afternoons in my apartment, listen to music, tapes, read books…everything I have in my toolbox.
This just came to me as the best way to describe to you what is going on. Ever gone cliff jumping? Ok…so you know this is going to be a wild ride…and yet, everyone…I mean everyone right at the beginning is slightly timid. “Stop telling me to jump IM GOING TO DO IT!” That’s where I am. I am going to do this. I am going to pull that trigger. I am going to jump like all hell…just kind of…looking at the bottom right now going ok…lets go. The only difference…that bottom – the one you can see with the water below you – ha, that doesn’t exist here. Imagine jumping off a cliff and not knowing how long or exactly where you are going to land. What…the…F.
So as you could imagine…slightly timid at the moment!
I have everything I need. I’ve done the prep work. The pages are built. The supporting content is going to be written and syndicated. Supporting companies are there. The past experience is there. The knowledge is there. The passion for playing this game is there. The opportunity is there. And tomorrow, I’m pulling the trigger. I’m going for it…testing the waters, and turning the whole thing on…and we are off to the races.
This is going to be the grandest adventure I’ve ever gone on in my entire life. Have I been having to take a few steps back from looking at this project from time to time – you bet. Because the scale of it is a bi intimidating at times. Do I have the appetite for something like this – yes. My life, is about to get incredibly busy. I guess I was in a place of quiet for such a long time that it started to freak me out a bit that I knew things were going to get quite loud. I am pretty sure I also had just a pinch of anxiety about the whole thing haha. But that’s what this is about right?
If you want to stand in the kitchen, you better be willing to take the heat.
There’s something else that I think that comes with this. Responsibility. In many ways, I am going to have to step up to the plate even more. Mediocre efforts aren’t going to cut it. This is a time for full measures because this is my time to serve. This is not a me centered project…this is an us centered endeavor. It’s the biggest thing I’ve ever done and I need to continue to throw my heart and soul into it. Am I willing to take the heat? If I’m going to do this, which is really what I want to do, I must. Will there be criticism? With everything – even this project at times – there always is. But I’m going to work my way through that in order to continue encouraging other people. That’s why I’m here.
What if I fail miserably?
That’s ok – because I will try and try again. Thousands of times over if I have to. I’ve been created through failure anyways. I can’t tell you how many times I have tried and failed. But that one time that everything clicks…those moments change the rest of your life. It took me one year to build a physical body of my dreams…and it took me 13 years of trying and failing to get there. I remember doing endless crunches in my bedroom when I was 12 because I wanted to look like this guy I saw in a magazine. Some things…in fact all good things…take time.
I’m leaving some things behind tonight as I go to bed. In times like these, I’ve always made outward declarations so I can not only hold myself accountable to my vision, but others can as well (oh and they do). So my declaration is this. Every single day, without fail, I will come to this new project and produce something that can encourage and inspire others. Every. Single. Damn. Day.
I know, that if I can do that I can make one hell of a difference. I don’t know how fast, but it could happen really fast. Like weeks fast. In fact, in some of my test runs…days fast. So we will see. But I am determined to create this – because this has never existed before. I am determined to build a place where people can go…and where they can leave a little bit better off.
Maybe writing here for 4 years was my preparation for this moment. Could be. Like I said, lots of things are about to change and even the nature of this project will change as well. I am on the cusp of a moment – that has freaked me out the past couple of weeks – but as tonight approaches and I’ll be driving back from the city, I’ll know that tomorrow morning is the start of something incredibly new, exciting, thrilling, and will be one of the greatest adventures of my life.
– Evan Sanders