Bold & Fearless.
What does that mean to me? Well, let me get into this.
It’s like nothing I’ve ever done before. There’s no season, no number to hit, no specific weight or record to break…there’s only the end result…which unlike anything else I’ve ever done in my life, is centered around…an actual vision.
Tomorrow marks the beginning of the last 4 weeks of my training with my coach – the hardest 4 weeks of training I will ever go through. In the first 4 weeks, I learned the importance of perfect form while lifting heavy weights. In the second 4 weeks I learned how to push myself to and past failure. While I wait for my trainers new notes on these next 4 weeks I’m taking time to reflect on what is about to happen.
You see, every morning I wake up to the same song on my phone, and I hear Eminem rapping about “one shot” to seize everything you’ve ever wanted to have. There are many shots with this, but those opportunities only will come after the deed is done. I have to earn my place. If for any reason I don’t make it all the way, I will still be so close…only a couple of weeks away, and if I keep pushing I will get there. Like I said before, there’s no end of season. In fact, being on the field of life is the season. For the first time, in a very long time, I feel like I am playing in the game.
But I still treat every single day as if it was the most important day. As if it was truly my one shot. These next 4 weeks have to be representative of 7 years of pain, struggle, and how much I want this. Out of 7 years…I am only 4 weeks away. Can I do it perfectly? Can I focus that much? Can I give it everything I have.
These are the questions I am asking…and there are answers that bellow from deep within that roar yes.
I’ve never felt this way…bold and fearless. Sometimes I think I felt it, but this is something new entirely. This is deeper…more confident, truer feelings than the old.
There is no abyss I am entering into. No cave. No darkness. In fact, I am near the end – the climbing out a changed man. And I am changed. But most of the changing is just about to come.
I can’t wait.
– Evan Sanders