There are these moments where I feel like I am standing at the poker table of life, the heavens above are standing across from me on the table, and I am challenged to go all in…with a blind hand…and I have to take it or else I may never understand the victory I could have accomplished when I am able to flip those cards over.
Life has been working in mysterious ways for me lately.
Over the past 6 weeks I have learned many lessons about what it means to chase your dreams. The fun and infuriating part about getting halfway through your journey is when you realize that you have expanded your limits and you have more in the tank.
More in the tank…
How could this be possible when you were battling it out only a few weeks ago to even start the journey? We grow and grow and grow and constantly are bettering ourselves…and then eventually…what once was can no longer be returned to.
I believe that once your mind has experienced something, it can never return back to a smaller size. You can never get rid of that experience and your thoughts are permanently altered because of a concept or idea entering your mind. At this point in my life, I have had a few things happen which have been mind altering to say the least. For the longest time, I have been scared to take every leap of faith that I know I should take because I wanted to hold onto what I had. I wanted to keep it safe, to live in the zone that I was in…but I realize now that is no way to live life.
To have accomplished something, and not be willing to risk it once you have achieved it, will not lead to growth.
The only way I have arrived at where I am now is by taking big risks and despite not seeing the cards on the table, going for it anyways. There are things that I know I should be doing that I sometimes don’t and I feel physically sick when I don’t act on them.
Not doing what you are called to do is spiritual suicide.
You slowly melt inside and you go to sleep with regret. I can’t do that anymore. No more regret. No more what if. There can only be “I did.” I did these things and this is the result it got me. I did these things because I believed in them.
You have to put your butt on the line each and every day in order to see what wonderful plans life has for you.
Just some thoughts this afternoon. More this evening.
– Evan Sanders