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Of course I still think of you




The scenes replay in my head as if you put them fresh on the reel

I remember your laugh

How safe I felt

Anything in my heart could be said

Of course I remember

I remember laying on the lawn listening to this song

And we both fell asleep even though we were both so awake

I see pictures once in a while

That remind me of that time

I see my smile

My heart was on fire

I wish it for everyone

That feeling

I remember

We recover in life

They say time heals all wounds

But like any wound

Scars are left

Of course I remember

But I store those memories away now

They aren’t as present for me as they used to be

I used to live them every day


But you helped me become the man I am today

And for that I thank you every day

It was love and gentle touch that got me here

When I felt that I was made of broken pieces

All that time ago

When I thought that scars were to be ashamed of

Instead of battle wounds to tell magnificent stories about

Of course I remember

We don’t talk

There are no smiles

No letters anymore

But once the pain subsided

There were only warm things left in me


Love was left over


But prevalent



Love for life

And the cold hardened ground in my soul thawed

I remember your hair

Those eyes

Your hands

Of course I remember

And now

I store that away

In here ::chest::

For those times when I need to smile

And I do

And I go on

Knowing the foundation was set

For doing something great with myself

Sometimes you have to turn the light off

To really know what it’s like to turn the light on

– Evan Sanders

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  • Tiffany Coffman
    September 13, 2013 at 9:10 pm

    It’s quite something to work your way through that, considering where you started from, and come out the other end. Such a painful process.

  • charibels
    September 13, 2013 at 9:30 pm

    Reblogged this on CHA and commented:
    I was really scared to think that I was falling in love. I didn’t want to think that I was in love at all. Now, I finally understood what this feeling was all about.

    Of all the visits that I got in my life, you are one of the sweetest ones. And I keep all the memories of the little things. Those little smiles, like Evan puts it, for the moments in the next seasons of my life when I need to smile.
    I am so glad that I felt this way. There is no need to fear a love that doesn’t wait anything in return. Because that’s exactly how love should be – unconditional.

  • klove
    September 14, 2013 at 12:13 am

    Beautiful! Just beautiful.

  • Pangeline Edwards
    September 14, 2013 at 5:05 am

    Evan, I am so glad you are a hopeful romantic. You never cease to amaze. Powerful post.

    • thebettermanprojects
      September 15, 2013 at 9:54 pm

      Haha did you see that tweet? Thank you. I am glad I can deliver consistently for you 🙂

  • Chocolate Covered Race Medals
    September 14, 2013 at 6:36 am

    Wow. That’s all! Wow.

  • Marsha J. O'Brien
    September 14, 2013 at 7:47 am

    Really the depth and quality of this is remarkable. You are one talented man. Keep at it – you may be changing the world one person at a time!

    • thebettermanprojects
      September 15, 2013 at 9:54 pm

      Appreciate it Marsha! I’ve been working on it! And I will. It’s a never ending journey

  • Lee
    September 14, 2013 at 8:48 am

    This is a great poem. Yours or John Mayer’s? Confused.

    • thebettermanprojects
      September 15, 2013 at 9:55 pm

      My work. I quote other peoples when I borrow. And the song is important to the poem

      • Lee
        September 28, 2013 at 7:10 am


  • evviolet
    September 14, 2013 at 12:28 pm

    Reblogged this on Little words- Big meaning and commented:

  • thetreehouseproject141
    September 14, 2013 at 9:57 pm

    🙂 His music is amazing

  • donika bajrami
    September 15, 2013 at 1:32 pm

    Reblogged this on donikabajrami and commented:
    Beautiful poem, I had to reblog 🙂

  • Irunsolo
    September 17, 2013 at 7:51 am

    Wow, that last line has struck me deeply: “Sometimes you have to turn the light off to really know what it’s like to turn the light on.” I couldn’t have read this at a more perfect time in my life! Thanks, Evan!