Awaken My Soul

“In these bodies we will live and in these bodies we will die, where you invest your love, you invest your life.” – Mumford & Sons

There are some really challenging aspects to life that I find myself struggling with and thinking about quite often. Looking deep within, no matter how many times you do it, it’s always a scary heart-wreching proposition. I often wonder if it is a challenge sent from above to truly see what I am actually made of. My answer to this is usually yes. How could it not be? Seems to always know exactly what I need right at the perfect time so I can grow. Faith has been building.


And yet I often find myself asking the same question over and over again – if I pour all of this love out into the world, when is it going to come back? Or is it and I just can’t see it? Maybe it isn’t in what people say to me, but in how they look at me when I see their eyes. It’s just hard for me to really know what is going on…and as much as I try to be okay with it there are many times when I am not. Honesty prevails here.

All I know is that years ago I decided to take the moral high ground and by god it has been difficult. But I can never go back – and even if I try the consequences would be so drastic that I would set myself back a significant amount. This journey has been decided and it will never change. I find myself asking why a lot. Maybe this is part of the story where I begin to truly find myself…or maybe it isn’t. Needless to say the questions still come up every day.

I guess for me that first quote sums it all up. Where you invest your love you invest your life. And at the end of the day, for me at least, its about continuing to invest my love into myself, other people, and my passion. I don’t think I could ask for more.

– Evan Sanders

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  • Lila
    June 8, 2013 at 11:02 pm

    I heard something along the lines of: if you feel that the love isn’t coming back, then you weren’t really giving love in the first place, because love doesn’t say “you owe me.”

    Sometimes we need to change our perspective, or change the people in our life.

    Easier said than done, but that’s the challenge. Forgiveness, always with forgiveness, the highest form of love.

    • stormy1812
      June 9, 2013 at 9:11 am

      absolutely agree with this! well said! i feel that real love does get rewarded but not always as we expect and certainly not when we expect it – but again if it’s about real love then we do it because we want to not for the rewards. it’s like with volunteering, the rewards are usually intangible and not always obvious but it’s always worth it.

      • Lila
        June 9, 2013 at 7:40 pm

        Absolutely, the love comes back.

        It love comes back in different ways, not necessarily from the place we planted. Everything is connected but sometimes we don’t see how that is, but it is. Everything is returned justly. All we can do is accept this with grace and open arms, to give and to receive.

    • thebettermanprojects
      June 9, 2013 at 2:27 pm

      Yah! I agree with that 100%. I often forget that I have to have no expectations. That is the true way to express yourself. Put it out there because it makes your heart warm! Was having a hard day yesterday.

      Rub elbows with me on the FB page

      • Lila
        June 9, 2013 at 7:42 pm

        Bad days make for good writing eh? 😉

        And you can rub elbows with me on FB here

        Let’s start by Liking each other, how’s that? Makes the world a better place =)

  • supriya
    June 8, 2013 at 11:07 pm

    I am in search of some answer of my question & your post, believe me, gave everything I needed to know. Thanks a lot 🙂

  • dereklubangakene
    June 8, 2013 at 11:10 pm

    Honesty prevails indeed.
    Lovely piece. Love in itself isnt poured into the world to be reciprocated (though it wouldn’t hurt).
    You do it coz you gotta do it.

    • thebettermanprojects
      June 9, 2013 at 2:28 pm

      Love your message. Forgot about the expectation part. But you definitely reminded me of the importance of that.

      Rub elbows with me on the FB page

  • neelkanth
    June 8, 2013 at 11:30 pm


  • Aparna
    June 9, 2013 at 5:54 am

    Thanks for sharing, lovely thoughts and very well put forth

  • Nancy Pilling
    June 9, 2013 at 9:54 am

    You are so young Evan, but on the right track. One thing I have learned is that to love freely without the expectation of having anything given back is simply the way I have chosen to live my life. Looking inward can be very difficult but let your true self show. You will know when you see this.

    Just by the choices you have already made you are experiencing the results. Ask yourself what it is you really want and what motivates this.


    • thebettermanprojects
      June 9, 2013 at 2:29 pm

      Thank you very much for the kind response. You definitely gave me a lot to think about and I am sure that I will write about it very soon. Hope all is well.

      Rub elbows with me on the FB page

  • Pink Ninjabi
    June 9, 2013 at 5:34 pm

    For various reasons, I totally find myself relating to you. Especially the picture of a story wrapped in string. May peace find you always. Ameen.


  • lifestylebygoldie
    June 10, 2013 at 3:49 am

    This is a very inspiring post, especially for someone like myself whose first thought is always “why me”? I’m also undergoing a betterment project (focused on happiness) so it’s nice to see the progress you’ve made…

  • arabian roses
    June 12, 2013 at 4:25 am

    if I pour all of this love out into the world, when is it going to come back? look deep within yourself and you ‘ll find the answer to your question : it is in your tireless desire to turn the world into a beautiful reality, it’s in your undrained fount of love ,look around you and you’ll find that you’re bestowed with blessings that many were denied .To radiate love is a reward itself ,for not all people have that gift. Besides love breeds love in the same way a seed breeds a tree it’s just it takes some time and patience =) and remember what jesus said” give and not expect anything in return . I’ m muslim and a I was taught that a true muslim is the one who does things for the sake of Allah and doesn’t expect any reward but Allah’s love not wordly recognitions for once Allah loved us he will inspire his creatures to love us too which the way love we poured out into the world comes back,that’s why when someone is loved and revered by his fellow men , it is considered as a tangible sign that he’s a genuinly kind person .and that Allh loved him =) May Allah show you and us the right path ;ameen =)

  • DarktoLight
    June 13, 2013 at 12:50 am

    Reblogged this on darktolightblog and commented:
    Love this…thank you Better Man! x