Reflecting on the Past


In my last year,

I tried to hide, I cried, and told myself to stand aside,

I learned patience and understanding in a project of better-manning,

I prayed and I wrote, I swallowed my throat,

My voice became silent, my pen into retirement,

I gained and I lost,

I cried in exhaust,

I looked for inspiration, in a place of devastation,

I was rocked by something I thought was locked,

Nothing is ever locked, it is only cocked,

I found it in myself to get back my health,

I lifted, I ran, tripped, and started again,

I felt pain and heartbreak, looking at that lake,

It was certain for me, as I saw my hands shake,

Picked myself up and tried to breathe,

Looking for something deep inside of me,

That little spark that kept me alive,

Came knocking and finally arrived,

I chose to live, without the fear,

To be bold and stand, not looking reared,

To give up the stories, that I had created,

Because those stories had me fated,

I took off the shades that covered my eyes,

And saw the beauty in our lives,

I found love in a lion’s den,

It was fear that I grasped, and picked up the pen,

Started writing about my life, the goals and dreams,

Telling others they can achieve anything with a little steam,


I was now out of my way,

Brain cleared by thoughts and emotions,

We create our field of play,

Time to finally get in motion,

Opened my heart to possibility,

My brain now had the ability,

To take my dreams and create,

No matter how hard my old self tried to hate,

And now I sit here writing you today,

Heart full and ready to play,

There is no fear stopping this ride,

But only fear sitting right here beside,

I learn about myself every day,

Rarely look back, there is no past anyway,

The only day that matters is the one right now,

Living in the past or future makes you miss the wow,

You will lose in life but it’s always your choice,

To live in pain or to rejoice,

For the things you have and the people you love,

Who will never fail to hold you above,

So make the choice for the latter,

And begin to climb up the ladder,

Towards getting your life back,

And how…? Well, Double your faith and make a stack.

Evan Sanders


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  • xxprettybird
    January 8, 2013 at 4:01 pm

    Reblogged this on Paradise & Promises.

  • wherethedaytakesme
    January 8, 2013 at 5:03 pm

    A true inspiration. To never give up

  • Pink Ninjabi
    January 8, 2013 at 8:00 pm

    I’m always amazed by how much you share of your soul with others as it gives me inspiration to be just as brave in bearing who I truly am, instead of who others want me to be. Thank you for being a model of strength for us beginners, and for seeing the truths within yourself that build you higher.

    With much well wishes to you,


    • reikipixie
      January 9, 2013 at 8:25 am

      never be who others want you to be, because the only person you deceive is yourself and you will only please others temporarily! stay true to who you are and what you want x

  • River Man
    January 8, 2013 at 9:15 pm

    Reblogged this on Reflections of a River Man and commented:
    I especially liked “choose to live without fear” and “to live in pain or rejoice” as I battle cancer. It is challenging to stay strong in spirit.

  • Julie
    January 8, 2013 at 10:01 pm


  • Doc
    January 9, 2013 at 10:30 am

    Great inspiration!

  • theleahfication
    January 9, 2013 at 2:10 pm

    Poetry <3 Thankyou so much for posting this, not only is it beautifully written, but it's inspired me to continue with my own poetry.

  • Archana
    January 9, 2013 at 7:56 pm

    mind blowing 🙂

  • Marianne's Tarot
    January 10, 2013 at 2:28 am

    So inspiring!

  • howtoloveyourselfagain
    January 10, 2013 at 3:21 am

    Reblogged this on howtoloveyourselfagain and commented:
    I can’t really add many comments other than that reading this is truly inspiring. Something I think that many of us trying to be better can connect to.

  • ExcuseMy_French
    January 16, 2013 at 3:03 pm

    Reblogged this on The world through the eyes of a curious teenager. and commented:
    This is so beautiful, so very talented ..

  • ayu4agustin
    January 19, 2013 at 10:42 am

    This poetry is inspiring, and so beautiful!