In My Old Life


In My Old Life

In My Old Life I chose to let failure bring me down

to chase after things that can never be caught

to focus on things that didn’t matter

to live in the past and try to skip to the future

to fill the holes inside with anything but the rest of my soul

In My Old Life I worried

I worried about not hearing from people

about where people may go

about my future

about the past coming back to haunt me

about things I had no control over

about injuries

about defeat

about anything…and everything

In My Old Life I made the choice to create those results

I created everything

and these were the results I got

In My Old Life I often pointed the finger

and blamed others for me not being where I wanted to

I let myself down

I let others down

I let my dreams down

In My Old Life I had excuses

excuses for everything

excuses for not winning

for not succeeding

for not beating the negatives

for not achieving my goals

the list goes on

And In My Old Life I wasn’t as powerful as I could be

I didn’t always look in the mirror and say that it was my doing

that everything in my hands

was controlled by my actions

That was my old life

Not part…

Of my new one

Evan Sanders

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  • The Water Bearer
    September 29, 2012 at 9:03 pm

    Me too 🙂 Blessings to you! Fabulous post!

  • Tiffany
    September 30, 2012 at 6:25 am

    You write so beautifully! 🙂 I can agree with you a lot here too.

  • amira
    September 30, 2012 at 9:26 pm

    great post. makes me realise what my problem is.
    i am living in the past worrying about the future.
    what i do not know is how to get out of this life.
    how to cross over to the present is elluding me.

  • amira
    September 30, 2012 at 10:07 pm

    Reblogged this on MindBlur and commented:
    Evan Sanders’ post hit a chord. I want to be able to move along and talk about my present life the same way. I feel I am trapped in a time in my life where nothing looks good enough. I need to move on and call THIS life my OLD life.

  • afrikankhomotjo
    October 5, 2012 at 9:11 am

    This post perfectly describes how my life used to be…