Last Dance

I think I might have finally found the opportunity I have been looking for. It has taken a few months, but I think it could be something incredible. Things have been picking up lately, I have been getting offers for freelance work and have been talking to plenty of people in the industry I want to work in. What has been holding me back the past couple of weeks is that thought of impending graduation (which I am excited for don’t get me wrong) and the doubts and fears that accompany this major event in my life. So, in a way that I can fight this battle on my terms, I am going to tell you a quick story that I always keep in my mind when my emotions and thoughts are taking too much tread in my mind.

Each of us have two garbage men in our minds. One of them is constantly shoveling thoughts that involve doubt, fear, and overwhelming emotions. This garbage man has no shortage of supply and is piling trash as high as he can. The other garbage man is trying to keep up by taking the high pile of garbage, sorting it out, and also happily whistling along…because he loves his job. What happens though is that when we focus too much on the garbage, it begins to pile higher and higher each day. It moves into other different parts of your brain and begins to infect other parts of your life. Then, all you can see and smell is garbage. I know that I have been having some of these thoughts control my attitude and emotions, and failed for a while to consistently distinguish between worthy thoughts and those that I need to toss. When you begin to feed the other garbage man, he takes your complaints, your negative thoughts and emotions and sorts them, finds lessons to learn, and chips away at the heaping pile of trash in your mind. Eventually, the garbage man begins to shovel faster, and faster, and faster until that pile of garbage is gone and all you are left with is a fresh mind.

Whenever I go through struggles, I just remember those two garbage men working, and make a decision of who I want to be…what type of person is worth it. Remember, the struggle is part of the journey. Without the struggle, there is no test and there is no achievable end result. When things start getting hard, you know you’re getting close.


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  • Abby Rae
    May 27, 2012 at 1:14 pm

    LOVE this post! I get little hits from music and such and I heard this song in the car with my husband just a few short hours ago and it made feel really happy…I almost was gonna blog on the little event! then BAM first post I see is yours:) Awesomeness, in my book! Best Wishes on ALL your endeavors~ Keep up that sorting and chipping 🙂

  • brianwilliamsen
    May 27, 2012 at 4:36 pm

    Thanks for this! Well said.

  • revmelissabrown
    May 28, 2012 at 6:18 am

    Thank u so much I desperately needed that today.

  • evea192
    May 28, 2012 at 12:52 pm

    The garbage men was a good comparison on what really is going on in ones mind.

  • thewardanceofthemindandsoul
    May 29, 2012 at 2:50 am

    Never looked at the ego like that before Evan, but it’s a great way to easily understand the process of how our internal struggles manifest and continue. Thanks for that example. And good luck on your progressive pathway!

  • My Pursuit of Perfection
    May 29, 2012 at 9:43 pm

    Thanks Evan.

    I love the story example, worth putting it on the wall.


  • justbetweencousins
    June 1, 2012 at 6:05 am

    Thank you for all you do!
    I have nominated you for the Sunshine Award!
    Peach State