This song cuts right to the core of me. There is no other song that makes me close my eyes and calm down like this one. I wrote a little bit earlier today as a pre-post writeup of something that I wanted to do to improve upon my life. But that post was missing the true point of something that has been on my mind lately. If you listen to the song carefully, you will recognize what Bon Iver is saying and how it correlates exactly with what I am saying. And I am going to just come straight out and say it. I feel that there are many cases in my life where I give a lot of my heart to people, open my arms with compassion and love…and this is taken, not appreciated. I have come to a point in my life where I realize that people come and they go. I can accept this. But it doesn’t mean I like seeing people go who I had great times with. I think we are given people for short periods of time so we can appreciate those who have been with us for great lengths. I know that this is the way it usually doesn’t happen. Most of the time people hurt the people closest to them. I think this is just absurd. You should show those who are close to you all the love and the compassion in the world. You should always be nice and respectful to those around you, but it is awful to forget those confidants who have been with you through the thick and the thin.
I think what it just comes down to is feeling a little bit under appreciated. I feel slightly unnoticed…and truly sometimes do wonder if I am actually making the impact I have set out to make. This post is a little bit about self doubt. There is one part of the brain that says if you truly were amazing then people would stay with you no matter who they are…and then there is another part that knows that is not the way it works. There are a handful of people who I feel were taken away from me way too early. Maybe this is my challenge from above. To see how I react to these circumstances. One of the most interesting and contradictory things that has happened in the past for me is “fighting for” those who have left. I know to a certain extent there will be situations that you really do have to fight for what you believe in and those who are very close to your heart in your life. However, fighting for those who come and go hasn’t exactly worked out for me so well. In fact…it backfires. Sometimes…you really just have to let go…fully.
These are some things that I really needed to get off my chest because I miss some people but I know that the healthiest thing to do right now is just to write it down and be happy that I have good memories of them. Sometimes its not appropriate to tell people certain things, not because you don’t mean it, but because they won’t get it. Hemingway once said that you should write the truest sentence you ever knew…and I think today, that past sentence was exactly what he was talking about.
With Great Love,