A long time ago, someone very special to me gave me this song on a CD. I was in a place of uncertainty and pain…but with a helping hand…I was able to rise out of something that at the time seemed unbeatable. I was able to take a look at myself and say “This is not what I want.” Sometimes we get stuck in the mud, and all we can focus on is the mud around us. We forget to keep our eyes on the light, and keep crawling no matter how thick the mud may be. People will come and go in your life, but you have to realize that angels are sent to you not to hold your hand forever. They are there to help you during your deepest moments of weakness and despair. I woke up from a sickness induced nap today…with a clear head…with the change of view that I have been looking for. Suddenly, it all made sense.
When you look yourself from the outside, you start to realize that there are so many things you do each day that may or may not be within yourself. You act specific ways, you say things, you do things…and then when you step out of the box…you realize that many of those things didn’t even come close to what you represent as a person. I have found that only at the end of the day, when I am laying my head on the pillow, can I search my soul for places where I went off path during the day. I take it personally for a reason. Some may say its being hard on yourself…but what is the point of being soft? Personal strength for me is having the courage to look at myself in the mirror and say “That wasn’t right.” It has nothing to do with being too difficult on myself, it has everything to do with conviction. The conviction in which I use to attain my goals and keep my moral compass in line.
In everyone’s life, there are people who really just matter. Tell them. Have no fear. What could be more comforting than telling an angel they carried you when you were afraid to make footprints.