In My Last Year

First, this post was inspired by my friend Nathaniel who I personally saw going from an emotionless face to a smile in 4 days…thanks buddy.

In my last year,

I tried to hide, I cried, told myself to stand aside,

I learned patience and understanding in a project of better-manning,

I prayed and I wrote, I swallowed my throat,

My voice became silent, my pen into retirement,

I gained and I lost,

I cried in exhaust,

I looked for inspiration in a place of devastation,

I was rocked by something I thought was locked,

Nothing is ever locked it is only cocked,

I found it in myself to get back my health,

I lifted, I ran, tripped, and started again

I felt pain and heartbreak looking at that lake,

It was certain for me as I saw my hands shake,

Picked myself up and tried to breathe,

Looking for something deep inside of me,

That little spark that kept me alive,

Came knocking and finally arrived,

I chose to live without fear,

To be bold and stand not looking reared,

To give up the stories that I had created,

Because those stories had me fated,

I took off the shades that covered my eyes,

And saw the beauty in our lives,

I found love in a lion’s den,

It was fear that I grasped and picked up the pen,

Started writing about my life, my goals and my dreams,

Telling others that they can achieve anything with steam,

I was now out of my way,

Brain cleared by thoughts and emotions,

We create our field of play,

Time to finally get in motion,

Opened my heart to possibility,

My brain now had the ability,

To take my dreams and create,

No matter how hard my old self tried to hate,

And now I sit here writing you today,

Heart full and ready to play,

There is no fear stopping this ride,

But only fear sitting right here beside,

I learn about myself every day,

Rarely look back, there is no past anyway,

The only day that matters is the one right now,

Living in the past or future makes you miss the wow,

You will lose in life but its always your choice,

To live in pain or to rejoice,

For the things you have and the people you love,

Who will never fail to hold you above,

So make the choice for the latter,

And begin to climb up the ladder,

Towards getting your life back,

And how…? Well, Double your faith and make a stack.

Evan Sanders

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  • soman319
    December 30, 2011 at 10:48 am

    This is great. Good work. I feel like we’ve shared a very similar year. But it’s not come to an end, only for something new to start.

    • thebettermanprojects
      August 26, 2013 at 12:31 pm

      New starts are amazing! Just don’t wait for a date on a calendar to make that decision for you! Change your life whenever you want!

      If you’re a dreamer, go now…or you will regret it. Connect with me on Facebook and Twitter for daily motivation

  • jamiegall1930
    December 30, 2011 at 10:55 am

    What a beautiful poem! Thank you sharing this =)

  • Jessie Jeanine
    December 30, 2011 at 11:21 am

    Love this ~ it is really beautiful and you did a great job ~ thank you! I appreciated your visit as well and hope you have a Happy New Year.

  • celestealluvial
    December 30, 2011 at 1:26 pm

    Hi. I am Celeste. Thanks for stopping by my post and showing your support. Its good to have you.
    WOW. I felt the depth of your pain and emotion in this poem, and the fierce joy of your breaking free and your present success. A very touching read indeed, not hard to read, and very relatable. It was nice to read a personal piece on inner reflections as refreshing as this. I salute your accomplishment and thank you for sharing this writing. I look forward to reading more. Please visit me again soon. Happy New Year! Love and Light, Celeste. 🙂

    • thebettermanprojects
      August 26, 2013 at 12:29 pm


      Thanks for the great comment. You pretty much summed it all up right there: the fierce joy of breaking free. I remember writing this post and the feelings and emotions that went into it. Thank you for backing me up and supporting me! Hope all is well with you.

      If you’re a dreamer, go now…or you will regret it. Connect with me on Facebook and Twitter for daily motivation

  • faithdream
    December 30, 2011 at 6:20 pm

    This is beautiful. What an inspiring and heartfelt message. It pours out the pen like a bleeding heart. Filled with emotion and expression, this poem speaks volumes! Great work!

    • thebettermanprojects
      August 26, 2013 at 12:28 pm

      Awesome imagery. Pouring out of a pen like a bleeding heart. I have often thought of my writing journey like that. It comes directly from the heart 🙂

      If you’re a dreamer, go now…or you will regret it. Connect with me on Facebook and Twitter for daily motivation

  • Kay aka Babygirl
    December 30, 2011 at 11:31 pm

    This is really an inspiring, wonderful, and uplifting message. I really enjoyed reading this. Thanks for sharing this. I hope you have a great New Year

    • thebettermanprojects
      August 26, 2013 at 12:25 pm

      Thank you for the great comment. It is one of my favorites for sure. Hope all is well with you and that you are having a wonderful life!

      If you’re a dreamer, go now…or you will regret it. Connect with me on Facebook and Twitter for daily motivation

  • Be Real Be Happy
    January 1, 2012 at 6:24 am

    this is very inspirational. and something i needed to read. thanks

  • Rachel Jones
    January 1, 2012 at 12:02 pm

    Wow. Your poem is full of so many truths. I loved the way you used rhyming in such a new, unique, and refreshing way; it was in no way predictable at all, and I like that. I can think of a lot of people I know who would benefit from reading such an inspiring poem.
    Thank you for following my blog!


    • thebettermanprojects
      August 26, 2013 at 12:24 pm

      Conforming to the rules puts you in a box. You have to be able to break them :). Thank you for such kind words about the poem.

      If you’re a dreamer, go now…or you will regret it. Connect with me on Facebook and Twitter for daily motivation

  • Klextin
    January 1, 2012 at 9:14 pm

    I have nominated you for the Kreativ BloggerAward, please use this link to the announcement.
    Congrats and keep up the awesome work!