This will be my last post on the blogger format. I will be moving over to a different blogging site. Its time for a change. 2,500 views. I am still in awe that this has caught the attention of so many people. Thank you to everyone who has read this. I would love for you to send me a message and give me some feedback. Your thoughts, things you liked, things you didn’t like…the works. I only look to keep improving upon my writing and my life. Thanks again for all the support and to those who have already reached out to me and told me what they thought about this project.
I have always heard of Imogen Heap, but never really listened to her. Needless to say, the first song I clicked on spoke to me down to my core. I don’t need to explain the lyrics of this song. I couldn’t do them justice by explaining them. So just listen to them carefully. You will find out what she is talking about. I have come to an interesting juncture in my life. 50 posts later, I have changed in so many ways. I never would have thought that I would like writing this much. Ever since I was little I have struggled with writing down what I was thinking. I could speak volumes, but I couldn’t write the pages. Now, the majority of the time I have a pen in hand scribbling down words on paper. Behind closed doors, the pages turn filled with black cursive. Emotions flow out onto those pages. Writing is my method of therapy every single day. I feel like I am talking to someone when I am writing. After spending countless hours at my desk thinking and letting the words flow through my hand under my lamp, I finally figured out who I am talking to. I am talking to me. I have looked back on some of the things I have written in this blog, and they strike me…just like lightning. I realize how powerful my emotions are, because when I read them over again, I can feel the energy coming through what I am saying. Sometimes, I don’t even recognize my writing. But I know it all came from somewhere. I am not afraid of what I have written. Everything was 100% honest and from the heart. Thats all you can ever really ask from someone. Tell me what you feel with your heart, not with your mind. I find myself in conflict with some people over this. Often I tell my best friends when they are ranting about things or worried about something to stop talking, take a breath, and instead of speaking what is on their mind, dig down into their hearts and speak what is living inside of that place. Tell people what you truly feel, you never know when they will be gone forever.
I was sent this quote the other day by someone close to me and I really think it makes a lot of sense. Its also interesting that people are starting to send me quotes that mean something to them. So keep sending them, because I love seeing what people have to say.
“You don’t have to worry about what their vibration is if your vibration is one of connection. Because if your vibration is one of connection — you’re going to dominate the vibration. This is the way you learn your relationships. The thing that most people do not understand, is that you get to control the way you feel, because you get to choose the thoughts you think. Most people think that they only have the option of responding to the circumstances that surround them. And that’s what makes them attempt the impossible, which is to control the circumstances around them, which only feeds their feeling of frustration and vulnerability because it doesn’t take very much life experience to discover you can’t control all of those circumstances. But you can control your vibration. And when you control your vibration, you’ve controlled everything that has anything to do with you.”—- Abraham
We do not have the ability to control our surroundings. Thats okay. No matter how much control you think you have of your life, it can all explode in a second. Don’t try to control things, to put shackles on them. Life has a funny way of leveling everything you have figured out when you think your perfectly fine. The only thing you can ever be certain of is uncertainty. That is the way to live. Enjoy every single moment that you have been given because it could all be gone instantly. I think if everyone lived like today was their last day on this earth, people would tell each other truly how they felt, how much they loved them, and acted they way they know they should act. Unfortunately, people get caught up in things that dont matter. “That which matters the most should never give way to that which matters the least.” I try to live by that every day. I really try to go out on a limb and push myself to the limits. Just like the Bruce Lee quote I put up the other day about exceeding your limits, I try to attempt what I believe impossible every day. Just because you push yourself to the limits doesn’t mean your not going to get hurt though. You might get stung. There will be physical and emotional pain when you do something out of your comfort zone and you dont get the response or end result you thought you would. But once again, thats okay. Because the best things in life take blood sweat and tears.
Somerset Maugham once said “It’s a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.” I refuse anything but the best. That mostly goes for myself and how I act. I will give nothing but my best on things. I really got caught in a downward spiral of letting myself down or letting things that I cannot control control me and my emotions. Life is not about how hard you fall, but about how high you bounce. I think that is pretty important.
“Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anyone else expects of you. Never excuse yourself.” – Henry Ward Beecher
I am going to start holding myself to a higher standard. This change of my blog site isn’t just about finding new formats etc, but about letting go of the old and moving into the new. I am making a new life for myself. It is funny how many times you can try to say these things, but then there actually becomes a time when you wake up and it just clicks. Well, this morning was that time. I never thought it would come, but it is time. Keep on keeping on was some of the best advice Russell ever gave me. And he is right. When your going through something, just keep your nose to the grindstone. Keep working hard. When you look up, you will have created something beautiful.